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Little buttercups and wild daisies by the lily pond; remember, baby? Blowing dandelions, my only wish was you.
"You have four years to be irresponsible here. Relax.Work is for people with jobs. You’ll never remember class time, but you'll remember time you wasted hanging with your friends. So, stay out late. Go out on a Tuesday
when you have a paper due Wednesday. Spend Money you don't have. Drink 'til sunrise. The work never ends,
but high school does."-Tom Petty.
There we stood out by the highway to the city, just a few nights ago, and just as soon as we had almost walked away, the sky explodes into white. With fairytales blooming our of our heads, we ran into the clouds.
Nothing separates the generations more than music. By the time a child is eight or nine, he has developed a passion for his own music that is even stronger than his passions for procrastination and weird clothes.
All good books are alike in that they are truer than if they had really happened and after you are finished reading one you will feel that all that happened to you and afterward it all belongs to you; the good and the bad, the ecstasy, the remorse, and sorrow, the people and the places and how the weather was. If you can get so that you can give that to people, then you are a writer.
"You don't need anyone
to tell you who you
are or what you are.
You are what you are."
-John Lennon.
"I decided.. that I could go on being scared forever, that I could keep walking, that I could carry my rage around, hot and heavy in my chest forever. But maybe there was another way. You have everything you need, my mother had told me. And maybe all I needed was the courage to admit that what I needed was someone to lean on."
"Tell the story that's been growing in your heart, the characters you can't keep out of your head, the tale story that speaks to you, that pops into your head during your daily commute, that wakes you up in the morning."
"Don't you sometimes wonder if it's worth all this? I mean what you're fighting for."
--"You might as well question why we breathe. If we stop breathing, we'll die. If we stop fighting our enemies, the world will die."
"Well, what of it? It'll be out of its misery."
--"You know how you sound, Mr. Blaine? Like a man who's trying to convince himself of something he doesn't believe in his heart."
Right, birds can fly so high
And they can shit on your head
And they can almost fly into your eye
And make you feel so scared.
But when you look at them
And you see that they're beautiful
That's how I feel about you
- Kate Nash, Birds
"I don’t want to date
someone just to date
someone.
I want to be with a guy
who's going to better my
quality of life, better me."
-Blake Lively.
For what it's worth, it's never too late or too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it, and I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.
"There was doubt. We had an obligation to respect that doubt. We all share in the death of every human being."
--"Very poetic."
"We are taught to think of our success in terms of numbers. If touching one persons life is a good thing, then touching one thousands of people's lives must be a great thing. It's easy to see where we learned to think this way. Our whole society revolves around mass production. The more units we can move, the more customers we can serve. The more boats we can get, the more money and the more stuff we have, the better, right? Maybe it's not possible to touch one thousand peoples thinking, or as powerfully as one person. Maybe it's not really so revolutionary after all, to have one person out of a group of twenty tell everybody else what's right. Wouldn't it be better if we tried a decentralized approach where everyone works closely with those around them, instead of a few people waiting in anonymous mass? Do you have to save the world all by yourself, why don't you trust someone else to do it with you?"
Uncertainty is killing me and I'm certainly not asleep. Maybe I've gone far too deep, maybe I'm just far too weak
and that's the last place I want to be the last place. And there is so much we don't know, so we love and we hope that it holds. Thousands were lost and maybe more the question remains, "What is this for?" Maybe it came unexpected maybe I'm left unprotected and that's the last place I want to be.
"I hate the way you talk about dying."
"Everyone thinks I'll die."
"If everyone thought that about me, I wouldn't do it."
- Frances Hodgson Burnett, The Secret Garden
Happiness damn near destroys you, breaks your faith to pieces on the floor. So you tell yourself, that's enough for now, happiness has a violent roar. Happiness is like the old man told me look for it, but you'll never find it all. Let it go, live your life and leave it, then one day, wake up and she'll be home, home, home, home.
I wish I could show you
when you are lonely
or in darkness
the astonishing light
of your own being.
-Hafiz
The stars awaken a certain reverence, because though always present, they are inaccessible; but all natural objects make a kindred impression, when the mind is open to their influence. Nature never wears a mean appearance. Neither does the wisest man extort her secret, and lose his curiosity by finding out all her perfection. Nature never became a toy to a wise spirit. The flowers, the animals, the mountains, reflected the wisdom of his best hour, as much as they had delighted the simplicity of his childhood.
- Ralph Waldo Emerson’s “Nature”
"Girls are so queer you never know what they mean. They say "No" when they mean yes, and drive a man out of his wits for the fun of it." - Louisa May Alcott
Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins? It's not on the calendar, it's not a birthday, it's not a new year, it's an event - big or small, something that changes us, ideally it gives us hope, a new way of living and looking at the world, letting go of old habits, old memories. What's important is that we never stop believing that we can have a new beginning, but it's also important to remember amid all the crap there are a few things really worth holding on to.
"I hate the way you talk about dying."
"Everyone thinks I'll die."
"If everyone thought that about me, I wouldn't do it."
- Frances Hodgson Burnett, The Secret Garden
"But I don’t want comfort. I want God, I want poetry, I want real danger, I want freedom, I want goodness. I want sin . . . I'm claiming the right to be unhappy."
- John the Savage, Brave New World
Now he became aware of an entirely new sensation: pinpricks? No, because they were soft and without pain. Tiny, cold, feather-like feelings peppered his body and face. He put out his tongue again, and caught one of the dots of cold upon it. It disappeared from his awareness instantly; but he caught another, and another. The sensation made him smile.
- Lois Lowry, The Giver
"And in the end,
the love you take
is equal to the love
you make"
- The End by The Beatles
"I think a person's life is supposed to be like a dvd. You can see the version everyone else sees, or you can choose the director's cut and see the way they wanted you to see it, before everything else got in the way. There are menus, probably, so you can start at the good spots and not have to relive the bad ones. You can measure your life by the number of scenes you've survived, or the minutes you've been stuck there."-Nineteen Minutes
"No, very literal. We all share DNA. When I look at a bone it's not some artifact that I can separate from myself. It's a part of a person who got here the same way I did. It should never be easy to take someone's life. I don't care who it is."
--"You know you’ve been practicing your Nobel prize speech just a little too much."
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"It's a funny thing about comin' home. Looks the same, smells the same, feels the same. You'll realize what's changed is you."-The Curious Case of Benjamin Button.
"I used to have this really nice pair of rollerblades and I was afraid if I wore them, I'd wreck them... so I kept them in a box and you know what happened to them? I outgrew them. I never wore them once outside; I just wore them in my room a couple times. If you aren't gonna use your heart, then what's the difference if it gets broken? If you just keep it to yourself, maybe it'll be like my rollerblades - when you do decide to try it, it won't be any good. You should take a chance - you got nothing to lose."
I don't remember where and I don't remember when. I don't even remember the season. I just know that it was the first time I felt like I belonged someplace.
-The Perks Of Being A Wallflower.
"the most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. these persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. beautiful people do not just happen."
-Elizabeth Kubler Ross
I don't know what I want to do with my life, I just know I want to do it. I want to see my world.I want to meet every single person breathing on this earth. I want to give everyone a hug or a handshake and I want to make someone's life a little easier. I want to be different than the people I know because that's what makes us beautiful. I want to be absolutely ridiculous before I die. I don't want regrets. I want to stand for something.
I just love anything
that makes me laugh;
I think that's important:
those stomach wrenching,
jaw hopping laughs
that you can taste inside and out.
Feel them, and let them out.
Stop and make sure that everything you are doing right now is really what makes you happy. You can't just live for some goal in the future and have that be everything, have that be it because that is what some people do. They get on this road and there are all these signs saying, 'This way. That way,' but what if you get there. You get exactly what you wanted, like some people do, except all the things that were wrong are still wrong. Then what?
-Party Of Five.
I told you the truth, spilled straight from my heart to you. And now it’s out in open air, in thespace between your eyes and mine and I’m still quite surprised at how easy it is for you to catch my breath.
The boy and I, the boy who I knew but knew nothing about, we wandered those streets illuminated only by the moon and the stars and talked about movie stars and coffee shops and dreams that made us both wake in a sweat, and I told him how I dreamt of carousels and ferris wheels that electrified the night and he told me how he dreamt of car crashes and broken glass and flashing lights that lit up the sky in blues and reds, and together we shared slices of pizza and broken stories in pizzerias with no doors and I told him how he looked happy, flustered yet happy, and how his cheeks were tinted a Shirley Temple shade of pink, and we walked each other back down those quiet and swollen streets, our laughter and joy and attention caught only by the sound of breaking glass, and together we watched that tiny red car crash into a brick wall, breaking into tiny, sugary specs like a ten thousand volt supernova, and in our amazement, in our fright, I was the first to notice the wall itself, a towering brick thing, and how behind it a ferris wheel, bright as the sun, was turning round and round in quiet excitement, and so together we stood there, shaken by the curious awe of the world, taken aback by the strangeness of it all, and when the world quieted back down we turned our backs and, solemnly, he walked me back to my waking life. – Penelope Bat
They spoil every romance
by trying to make it last
forever.
-Oscar Wilde.
It's time for something new, something from the heart and captivating to my ear. We can sing the songs of yesterday or come alive with everything we have inside. It's going to take more than your heartache to change the world in one note.
Oh, there are so many lives. How we wish we could live them concurrently instead of one by one by one. We could select the best pieces of each, stringing them together like a strand of pearls. But that's not how it works. A human life is a beautiful mess.
It's true: Everyone needs a reason to stay alive -- someone who justifies your existence. Someone who loves you. Not beyond all reason. Just loves you. Even just shows an interest. Even someone who doesn't exist, or isn't yours. No, no! They don't even have to love you! They just have to be there to love! Target for your arrows. Magnetic Pole to drag on your compass needle and stop it spinning and tell you where you're heading and...Someone to soak up all the yearning. That's what I think.
I let my head fall back, and I gazed into the eternal blue sky. It was morning. Some of the sky was yellow, some the safest blue, one small cloud scuttled along. Strange how everything below can be such death and chaos and pain while above the sky is peace, sweet gentleness.
The real secret of magic is that the world is made of words, and that if you know the words that the world is made of you can make of it whatever you wish.
Sometimes I feel like I’m wasting all my time waiting for my life to start. I’d rather trip andfall then never try. I don’t want to waste another day while the world goes by. I wanna live it,I wanna breathe it, I wanna feel it for myself.
For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again. -The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
It was one of those days when it's a minute away from snowing and there's this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it. And this bag was, like, dancing with me. Like a kid begging me to play with it. For fifteen minutes. And that's the day I knew there was this entire life behind things, and...this incredible benevolent force, that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. Video's a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember...and I need to remember...sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in.
Trust me just this once
—you are the opposite
of ordinary.
All good books are alike in that they are truer than if they had really happened and after you are finished reading one you will feel that all that happened to you and afterwards it all belongs to you; the good and the bad, the ecstasy, the remorse, and sorrow, the people and the places and how the weather was. If you can get so that you can give that to people, then you are a writer."
If you believe something, passionately, people will follow you. People hardly care what you believe, as long as you believe something. If you are passionate about something, people will follow you because they think you know something they don't, some clue to the meaning of the universe. Passion is tricky though, because it can point to nothing as easily as it points to something...what people believe is important. What people believe is more important than how they look, what their skills are, or their degree of passion. Passion about nothing is like pouring gasoline in a car without wheels. It isn't going to lead anybody anywhere.
You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view... until you climb into his skin and walk around in it
I've heard that it's possible to grow up. I've just never met anyone who's actually done it. Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. We throw tantrums when things don't go our way, we whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark, we look for comfort where we can find it, and we hope, against all logic, against all experience. Like children, we never give up hope.
Ah, my birthday. Normally I'd put on a festive hat and celebrate the fact that the Earth has circled the sun one more time; I really didn’t think it was going to make it this year, but darn it, if it wasn't the little planet that could all over again.-House.
There are circles everywhere; twenty-four hour days and cycles, drawings of full moons and suns made by kids across the glove. The point is that the days and circles keep coming if you're lucky. Events matter, whether they are marble-small and ordinary, or the enormous ones that stretch out ocean-wide. Each moment pulls you from the past into now, and then into what is next on your horizon.
Go.
Don't worry so much
and go for it.
I promise you.
Life always has a way
of getting us
where we're supposed to be.
I'm a lover and a fighter. I get angry easily, but I'm working on it. I party, sleep, and think too much, but I get my shit done. I have a weakness for sweet talkers, but I'm learning and enforcing my boundaries. I don't let many people in, but once they're in, they're there forever. I'm strong and independent and I've been broken, but never shattered.
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"You get a strange feeling when you're about to leave a place, I told him, like you'll not only miss the people you love but you'll miss the person you are now at this time and this place, because you'll never be this way ever again."
"I want out of the labels. I don't want my whole life crammed into a single word. A story. I want to find something else, unknowable, some place to be that's not on the map. A real adventure.'
A spinx. A mystery. A blank. Unknown. Undefined."
"Every day I come by your house and I pick you up. And we go out. We have a few drinks, and a few laughs, and it's great. But you know what the best part of my day is? For about ten seconds, from when I pull up to the curb and when I get to your door, 'cause I think, maybe I'll get up there and I'll knock on the door and you won't be there. No goodbye. No see you later. No nothing. You just left. I don't know much, but I know that."
you've gotta smile sometimes
you're worlds will collide
i know your tired of waiting
so when you're through with hating
you'll be a much more beautiful person
and now you know.
"Memory is a part of the present. It builds us up inside; it knits our bones to our muscles and keeps our hearts pumping. It is memory that reminds our bodies to work, and memory that reminds our spirits to work to: it keeps us who we are"
And when the
brokenhearted people
living in the world agree,
there will be an answer.
Let it be.
-Let It Be by The Beatles.
"Privacy is the world of things you know about yourself and don't need to share. It's your relationship with yourself. The way you cry at sad movies and sing in front of the mirror. The way you believe you'll be a movie star or win a Nobel Prize. Whatever it is. Those dreams you're entitled to. The difference is that you're not ashamed. Your private thoughts empower you. Secrets are something else. It's the part of yourself that you disown. Even to yourself. Then a strange kind of chemistry occurs and you start to love the secret and you think the secret is keeping you alive. I hope you'll never do that. I hope you'll want to take yourself and your private dreams and choose to be part of the dance."
The human story does not always unfold like a mathematical calculation on the principle that two and two make four. Sometimes in life they make five or minus three; and sometimes the blackboard topples down in the middle of the sum and leaves the class in disorder and the pedagogue with a black eye.
-Winston Churchill
Happiness is excitement that has found a settling
down place. But there is always
a little corner that keeps flapping around.
-E.L. Konigsburg
There are people going lonely, and they'll stay lonely far into the year because you're making blinkers fashionable. And fashionably you'll say, "All is equal in love and war," and, "I'm sorry, but I've got some things to do." And you pretend to read a book you'll never finish till the day that the author dedicates it to a century of fakers. They took your mold and they burned it on the fire in history today. Yeah, the author dedicates it To A Century Of Fakers. He was an anarchist--he tried his best, but it wasn't good enough.
If I'm going to be alive,
then I might as well be
incredible.
I want to do more
than just exist.
I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels safer somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be out there, waiting for you. Chances are it could be even worse.
Sitting in math class, I waited for my professor to begin her lecture on the importance of calculus. In walks the classic dork, straight out of a movie. The coke-bottle glasses, high waters, and shoes that he has probably had since middle school. Carrying numerous books and papers that leave a trail behind him, I watch in wonderment. He looks disheveled, like he is lost 99% of the time. You can tell by his face and body language that no one has ever really accepted this kid. Entangled in his surroundings, he fumbles to his lab station. Hunched over, he sits awkwardly waiting for the same thing that I am waiting for, the teacher. I keep watching him. I notice that insecurities ooze from this kid like an infection. You can see the fear in his eyes not from just people anymore, but the whole world. This kid has probably been alone since middle school, maybe more like elementary school. At this moment, as I watch this insecure, scared, lonely guy, I realize something. We are all like him. Sure, he looks like a lost dog in a thunderstorm but who hasn't felt alone, scared, and insecure. We've all felt like he looks right now. We just hide it better than he does.
I think it's going to be all right, I think it's going to be just fine. I think it's going to get much better than before. I think we're going to see the sun. I think we're going to have some fun. I think we're going walk out through the open door, and maybe when we wake up in the morning, maybe when the darkness starts to fade. Maybe in a paper boat we'll both just float away. Underneath the river trees, off towards a lazy sea, underneath the bridge that carries people home. Past the church where Jesus saves, up and down upon the waves, sailing off towards adventures of our own.
So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn't seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict. You're not killing anyone... Except maybe yourself a little.
"Always be on the lookout
for the presence of wonder."
"Let me suggest a theme for you: to state to yourself precisely and completely what that walk over the mountains amounted to for you, — returning to this essay again and again, until you are satisfied that all that was important in your experience is in it. Give this good reason to yourself for having gone over the mountains, for mankind is ever going over a mountain. Don't suppose that you can tell it precisely the first dozen times you try, but at 'em again, especially when, after a sufficient pause, you suspect that you are touching the heart or summit of the matter, reiterate your blows there, and account for the mountain to yourself. Not that the story need be long, but it will take a long while to make it short."
But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever... that you'll never have to change again.
And maybe I found comfort in the words you said. They were the words I needed to hear, and it didn't matter who from. It wasn't puppy love or infatuation or love at first sight, or anything that people always talk about and laugh. Maybe you don't know just what I mean. I can't really explain it - it's so hard to put into words but, well, it was just something I'd never felt before. Something I'd never even known. People can't just tell you about things like that, you have to find them out for yourself. That's why it is so important. It was something I'll always remember because I just couldn't forget.
All I want to do is help. I want to help because I don't
think people should suffer as they do, because if there's
no bigger meaning, then the smallest act of kindness is
the greatest thing in the world.
"Here we are. All of us, basically alone, separate creatures just circling each other. All searching for that slightest hint of a real connection. Some look in the wrong places, some, they just give up hope because in their mind they're thinking, "Oh, there's nobody out there for me." But all of us, we keep trying over and over again. Why? Because every once in a while, every once in a while two people meet and there's that spark. And yes Bones, he's handsome and she's beautiful and maybe that’s all they see at first, but making love? Making love, that's when two people become one."
"It is scientifically impossible for two objects to occupy the same space."
"Yeah, but what's important is we try. And when we do it right, we get close."
"To what? Breaking the laws of physics?"
"Yeah, Bones, a miracle. Those people, role playing and their fetishes and their little sex games, it's crappy sex. You know, at least compared to the real thing."
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Well, I'm gonna live, Maggie, I'm gonna live. You know, they had me real scared. You know, I've wasted so much time, you know, I've got a million different kinds of feelings left in me. And I want to use 'em. I want to use 'em all.
"So, I guess we are who we are for alot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them."
"Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday."
"Wish on everything. Pink cars are good, especially old ones. And stars of course, first stars and shooting stars. Planes will do if they are the first light in the sky and look like stars. Wish in tunnels, holding your breath and lifting your feet off the ground. Birthday candles. Baby teeth."
"When I think back on this life, I guess we were doing the best we could. And to look at us from the outside, I'm sure it seems somewhat romantic but when you've tasted excess, everything else tastes bland. Yeah, we had everything to lose, but we still lived like we were about to die. After all, we were the drug scouts of America."
I like too many things
and get all confused
and hung-up running
from one falling star
to another till I drop.
This is the night,
what it does to you.
I had nothing to offer
anybody except
my own confusion.
I know that things between us are pretty much beyond repair right now and I wouldn't ever presume to try and make everything better with a conversation, so that's not what this is - but I just wanted to tell you, I wanted to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the pain it caused you, but mostly, I'm sorry for my part in it, but mostly, I'm sorry because I miss our friendship and however far off it may be, I look forward to the day that we can be friends again.
-Dawson's Creek.
But it's strange, when you've always been told something is true, like the moon will come back. You need proof. And while you wait, you feel the entire balance of your world just tipping. It's crazy. But when it's over, and it does come back, that's the best, because it's all you want, everything narrows to just that. It's this great rush, like for that one second everything's okay with the world again. It's amazing.
-Keeping the Moon by Sarah Dessen.
There is no person in the world who is made to handle every punch that’s thrown at them. We aren’t made that way. in fact, we’re made to get mad, upset, sad, be hurt, stumble and fall. We aren’t supposed to be able to handle everything. But that’s what makes us stronger in the end, by learning from the things that hurt us most
Beautiful things come out of horrible situations. I know for a fact. Out of sadness you get a new found wisdom on how the world can look with a haze of gray clouds, how people can be senseless, how you can see the whole universe in a whole new way. And that may be hard to handle, hard to cope, hard to accept, but it is so damn beautiful if you really take the chance to realize. Out of anger, you can feel your heart beat race, with every beat it is shaking your whole being and not only the heavy steps you take. It is when you, your whole self and some power is telling you that you are alive. And that is amazing in every angle. Out of anything there is something in there that makes it incredible. Something that makes it shine. Whatever you feel is potent and it is such a blessing to be able to feel what you feel. You just have to think about it.
I like the stories
that the mouth can't
tell fast enough, the ears
that aren't big enough,
the eyes that can't
take in all the change.
I like the hugging,
the bringing together,
the end of missing someone.
"I am going to give you a piece of advice...advice I wish I'd been told in guidance class back in high school, in between the don't-do-acid and don't-drink-and-drive films. I wish our counselors had told us, 'When you grow older a dreadful, horrible sensation will come over you. It's called loneliness, and you think you know what it is now, but you don't. Here is the list of the symptoms, and don't worry—loneliness is the most universal sensation on the planet. Just remember one fact—loneliness will pass. You will survive and you will be a better human for it."
He was gone, and I did not have time to tell him what I had just now realized: that I forgave him, and that she forgave us, and that we had to forgive to survive in the labyrinth. There were so many of us who would have to live with things done and things left undone that day. Things that did not go right, things that seemed okay at the time because we could not see the future. If only we could see the endless string of consequences that result from our smallest actions. But we can't know better until knowing better is useless.
Lately I've been wishing I had one desire, something that would make me never want another. Something that would make it so that nothing matters. All would be clear then. But I guess I’ll have to settle for a few brief moments, and watch it all dissolve into a single second. Try to write it down into a perfect sonnet, or one foolish line.
That great everyday magic is discovering those who are strong enough to catch you. Those who care enough to reach out their arms and cushion your fall. And I think that's what’s so wonderful about life - you never know when you'll stumble upon these kinds of marvelous people, or when they'll stumble onto you. And as terrifying as it sounds, the greatest thing that could ever happen to us is to slip up in the wind and float down into that fall. Because you never know who will be waiting for you at the bottom.
-Penelope Bat
I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't,
stopped to fill up on my way out of town.
I’ve loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't.
I had to lose everything to find out.
maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road,
but I’m movin' on.
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I’d stumble through the hallways glance as I passed you, and we'd keep the secret between our eyes. I want to go back to those days,
“Pick the day. Enjoy it - to the hilt. The day as it comes. People as they come... The past, I think, has helped me appreciate the present - and I don't want to spoil any of it by fretting about the future.”
Audrey Hepburn
You know, if you tell the truth, you don’t have to remember anything.
"She worked her toes into the sand, feeling the tiny delicious pain of the friction of tiny chips of silicon against the tender flesh between her toes. That's life. It hurts, it's dirty, and it feels very, very good."
It is cruel, you know, that music should be so beautiful. It has the beauty of loneliness, of pain: of strength and freedom. The beauty of disappointment and never-satisfied love. The cruel beauty of nature and everlasting beauty of monotony.
"And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can't ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it's already happened."
People don't want their lives fixed. Nobody wants their problems solved. Their dramas. Their distractions. Their stories resolved. Their messes cleaned up. Because what would they have left? Just the big scary unknown.
Watching the sky,
you're watching a painting.
Coming to life,
shifting and shaping,
staying inside,
it all goes by.
Beautiful things come out of horrible situations. I know for a fact. Out of sadness you get a new found wisdom on how the world can look with a haze of gray clouds, how people can be senseless, how you can see the whole universe in a whole new way. And that may be hard to handle, hard to cope, hard to accept, but it is so damn beautiful if you really take the chance to realize. Out of anger, you can feel your heart beat race, with every beat it is shaking your whole being and not only the heavy steps you take. It is when you, your whole self and some power is telling you that you are alive. And that is amazing in every angle. Out of anything there is something in there that makes it incredible. Something that makes it shine. Whatever you feel is potent and it is such a blessing to be able to feel what you feel. You just have to think about it.
Sometimes in your life, you need lust. You need the adrenaline rush of knowing that this is not forever and that you're not committed to anything.
Just be who you are, wait your turn, don't push. Be beautiful, be graceful. If you're going to get angry, be angry behind closed doors. Don't ever let them see you sweat. Just hold your head up no matter what, and don't ever let anyone stomp you out.
"I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge. That myth is more potent than history. That dreams are more powerful than facts. That hope always triumphs over experience. That laughter is the only cure for grief. And I believe that love is stronger than death."
"There is a certain part of all of us that lives outside of time. Perhaps we become aware of our age only at exceptional moments and most of the time we are ageless."
My name is Gossip. I have no respect for justice. I maim without killing. I break hearts and ruin lives. I am cunning, malicious and gather strength with age. The more I am quoted, the more I am believed. I flourish at every level of society. My victims are helpless. They cannot protect themselves against me because I have no name and no face. To track me down is impossible. The harder you try, the more elusive I become. I am nobody's friend. Once I tarnish a reputation, it is never the same. I topple governments and wreck marriages. I ruin careers and cause sleepless nights, heartaches and indigestion. I spawn suspicion and generate grief. I make innocent people cry in their pillows. Even my name hisses. I am called Gossip. Office gossip - shop gossip - party gossip - telephone gossip. I make headlines and headaches. Remember, before you repeat a story, ask yourself: is it true? Is it fair? Is it necessary? If not, do not repeat it. Keep quiet! Great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events, shallow mind discuss people.
I was afraid to feel vulnerable. I was afraid of you and the way you made me feel. I know that doesn't matter now, after what I did, but I just thought you should know. That's how I spent my autumn - wanting you. I was just too scared to admit it.
I'm not the most romantic guys, no, I'm not the one she wants. But now the night's here and the mood is right, and the music has just begun. You said you liked me just as a friend, you never thought the other way. Well I said there's nothing wrong with that, but you never know what could change.
"I love New York, even though it isn't mine, the way something has to be, a tree or a street or a house, something, anyway, that belongs to me because I belong to it."
You say the waiting
could crush your heart.
I must admit, her every word captivated me. Her stories, her fears, her smile, her perfect eyes; all of these took me prisoner and refused to set me free. But I liked it. I basked in everything that was her, and gloried in every inch of her being. I loved the way she looked to me to make things better. I only wish I could have been the savior she expected me to be.
Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me.
Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves and then we have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos.
- Snoopy
"I prefer winter and fall, when you feel the bone structure of the landscape - the loneliness of it, the dead feeling of winter. Something waits beneath it, the whole story doesn't show."
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